Sunday, October 18, 2009

亮途

这两个月里,我都是告诉自己,这场比赛是自己跟自己比的。
要赢就要赢自己,因为除了自己,你没有任何敌人。
但最终,我还是,输了。

在为final彩排的最后两天,其实已经泄了一半,可能是对我根本陌生的武术表演,让我一路走来的士气全都没了。尽管我把应该要有的精神都表现出来,但我还是没办法克服掉自己内心的那份不安。







当我一走出到在台上时,看着如此震撼的粉丝团,我差点哭了出来, 原来他们的出现是如此的有影响力。整个晚上,我其实一直在瞄每一位穿上黄色制服的朋友,当中有的是家人,有的是亲戚,有的是朋友,但当中也有很多是我不认识的人。我相信尽管我们不相识,但我已经深深的感受到你们为我打气的那一刻。虽然从台上放眼望去他们的身影是很渺小的,但那股威力确实在整个场内,士气是最大的,而且你们的存在是我整晚的定心丸。在此,我要感谢每一位穿上黄色制服,每一位拿着荧光棒,每一位为我高举特大banner,还有每一位为我从内心里呐喊出来的朋友,你们给我的力量是我整晚在舞台上感受最深的一刻。
你们真的真的......很棒='')



我确实输了自己,但是我赢了你们,因为你们给我爬起来的勇气。


这一路走来的两个月,仿佛让我突然长大了两圈。纵然时间很短,但是沿途上的风景确是毕生难忘。因为我找到了很多可遇不可求的珍品,当中有友情,成长,肯定,价值,踏实,沉淀,及面对。 当然,这都只是其中的部分,但已足以让我的眼睛看远了两倍。


说到友情,这是最意想不到的事,人常说比赛中没有真的友谊,其实不然,因为我们已破了这个诅咒。和九位如此靓丽的女孩相处了这么久,当中有很多位真的点到我的心很深很深,我从她们身上感受到的,是如此真实的真性美。你们是我学习的对象,我的借镜,我的启发,还有我的体会。宝励,你是我眼中最纯美的女生,你的气质是独有的,尽管人家怎样评你,你要保持,因为那是你很独特的个性。淑仪的率直是我最欣赏的,很有大将之风的她是我心目中的winner.玉微的诙谐带给我们无限的欢乐,每次开口都会让我们笑翻肚子的一百万,是我们哭笑不得的谐星。没有一丝包装的俐芳,常常提请我们做人只要做自己是最自在的。精灵自信的琇灵,一定要学习她的精神,她的每一个动作及眼神是多么的充满生命力。单纯可人的贵町及俐玲是我们都不忍心看到被伤害的女孩,两个美到无法被挑剔的女孩经过这次的洗礼,这个旅程必定让她们更完整。美妤和爱华的积极,是女孩值得学习的对象,她们的付出是我们的启发。最后不能忘记的就是lilian,一个充满威力但很得人心的保姆,让我反省与人相处的方式,她也让我体会到,其实人与人的相处是可以很自然的。
















你们完整了我另一个人生旅程。


身边人对我的肯定,让我发现,原来我从来都没爱自己,如同他们爱我一样。我一直以为我爱自己一百分,但却是自己把自己打败了。我还是很感激每一位在我最沮丧的那一刻,走前来拍拍我的肩,然后轻声的告诉我,‘jean,不要紧,你是最好的’。看着每一张充满诚意的脸,但他们的眼睛还是掩饰不了他们心中的那份失落,我的泪不知觉的掉了,不是我不能面对,只是我没想到支持我的朋友,原来比我还失落,但为不增加我的伤感,他们还是坚强的为我撑下去。我一直自责自己的粗心,但最难过的还是那份辜负了大家的心,那份挫败感把我的心抿的很痛。这份最真实的感动,是我整个旅途里感受最深的一刻。还有很多关爱我的朋友,当中也包括一直看好我的导师,不敢跟我提起那份失落的心情,但我都知道你们是为了保护我而故意掩饰,谢谢你们的爱,我会振作的。




我的光,是你们照的。

纵然我挫败,但我会振作,因为一路上有你们。我从不知道原来我的旅程在开车的路上,身边坐满了你们。原谅我因为一路上的风景而忽略了坐在同一包厢的每一个你,到了终点,你们的出现让我感到充满希望。或许这个出口不是我想到达的地方,但是我已经感觉complete 了,因为你们让我觉得不管我到哪里,那个地方有着你们为我照的光。



朋友,谢谢你。


Saturday, October 10, 2009

最后一关

过了一关又一关,朋友,终于来到最后一关了!

人生中最大的舞台,我能做到吗?







不管了,我这次必定豁出去啦!
朋友们,在心中为我呼喊一次,可以吗?

Monday, September 21, 2009

A winner without a medal




在偶然的一个活动上,导师给我们看了这个video。看了后,没想到那个观后感是如此强烈,泪已在眼眶打转了。只知道看完过后,让我思考的是,先别说打一场战,你有曾尽心尽力去做每一件事?而做每一件事的当中,你是先去做然后才想,还是想了很多才去做?

这位台湾女跆拳道选手让我看到的是,就算她知道她的脚韧带坏了,踢的每一脚都是痛苦的,她还是坚持要把这场战打下去。苏丽文说:“在奥运殿堂,死掉都值得。”因为她以前就常幻想,如果能在奥运金牌战获胜的那一刻停止呼吸,是最美好不过的事。她明知她的脚是不可能如愿的操作,她还是坚持到底。我们也是不是应该有像她这样的精神,面对每一件事?

我想,不是每一个人都能像她有这样的勇气去应战的,至少我们不会去打一场没把握的战。但想回起来,什么战是一定必胜的,那做的每一件事一定要先考虑会不会赢才做吗?天下没有永远的赢家,那我们到底在战些什么。若太注意成果,我们就会忽略过程,太在意胜败,我们就失掉了应战精神。

从她身上看到,我想很多时候,我们把重心放错了地方,在比赛中赢了固然是一种肯定;输的当中自己若有付出一百把仙的努力,也亦是另一种肯定,这场战你还是赢家,因为你赢了自己。

成功的人不会为自己找借口,苏丽文,我看到了。

Sunday, September 20, 2009

九月了



我回来了! 时间有够快的,没有留神,又过了几个月。

去了一趟杭州之旅,整个旅程身心疲劳,但每过的一天却是如此充实。其实,旅行有时会累是正常的,但累的脑袋放空确是第一次。出国的这几天,睡眠时间加起来都不超过15个小时,但整个过程及经历却可能一生中只能经历仅有的一次。

深呼吸*
不知是不是睡眠品质不好,加上心情容易有起伏,我确实有点生活紧张。最近做了个实验,心理学家把我分析的有点赤裸。算出来的结论是说,一个高高在上的女生,对自己的目标感到模糊,加上性情冷漠的个性,有点让人感到无情。哎,怎么把我说成好像生活在自己世界里的王后呢,我有那么恐怖吗?我承认有时是比较酷一点,但不代表我无情啊,给点时间我,我只是有点慢热=)




这是在杭州游走夜市时,惊喜发现的一本小册子。虽然在讨价时输给了泼辣老板娘,心里是有点不服气,但算了,千金难买心头好,我还是乖乖付钱吧。老板娘,算你走运了!


想念我的朋友,真的不好意思,本姑娘最近又为自己作战了,所以会少上线。收到你们的msg,实在有令我感动。若还是想念我,请留短言给我吧,我会尽快回复!



爱你们的东主*

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Bangkok 2009








We hate to admit that the mask somehow makes us suffocating after wearing it for awhile.
What to do, Moy insists that we should always consider 'Protection First.'





While camwhoring,
Moy keeps emphasizing, ' no need to smile ladies, cannot see your face OK'





Three KL invaders arrived at the loo in bangkok airport.




It was already 6pm BKK time.






What a room!







We, overexcited for our deluxe size of bed!





Three ladies in a room, how we miss that atmosphere.
Powder, eyeliner, perfume, slippers, all we scream for before stepping out the door.






Morning mist, not in bkk, but in my camera.




What do we do the most in the city?

Walk on the street...



Walk to the mall....



Walk to the market...




and letting the sore feet cry themselves to find a place with cheap beer, and Cheers.





We hate bangkok JAM!





When hungry,
we would just eat anything at any stores/street stores we could find nearby.




We love tom yum kung, and the girls prefer the clear soup type.



And i love this particularly, Siew Yuk!



Noodle at Doo Dee Shop,Siam

This noodle has given us a great surprise, the soup is very good for appetite.
Sweet + Sour + Spicy = very Sexy taste!

Too bad the portion is too small!




Egg muffin, Mennon Store, by the street in Siam

Freshly out from the oven, it's a superb dessert!
Soft and puffy!



I call this a flinstone's pot.

It's too dark to eat at the valley,so we cant see whats inside the pot,
and we have no idea how to eat. The pot serves with 2 plate of raw veggies,
so we presume we shud be eating the normal steamboat way,
so Rach dumps everything into the pot, yet the pot is too small to fit.
Then only we realise the veggie should go in bit by bit together with the glass noodle,
and not one big chunk of veggies!

Its so so so HOT eating by the street, but the beef soup is good!




Aww..
the blended lemongrass with honey is certainly a cool drink to sip on a boiling weather in BKK.




But rach still loves the Thai Vitagen the best!


Its time to do some shopping..




Colorful bangles..

A colour each for souvenir?





or A bottle of....Umbrella?




The leather goods are pretty creative for a souvenir, too.




Mmmm...Steffy is in love with the multi-coloured straps!
But she din buy in the end, it's too fragile to wear:(




A pair of Froggies for you??




or consider me?
oops.. i mean the reddish 'lam ah chan' style of glasses :P




Steffy's dissapointed face is telling us she can't find anything she loves from the market.
So moy suggests 'lets keep looking.'




Rainy day on Chaktuchak rather gets us down.



Heading to Swensen for a love bite!




A little gift and a special venue for a birthday lady.




What's your flavour?
Ice creams are ecstacy!



The guy with the 'Star Ring' in his hand is good, his one-man show put a very big smile on everyone's face! Especially the birthday girl,
she still remembers him from the last trip we did last year.

Haha, how i miss his blushing cheek when i told him, 'eh, my fren likes you,and she remembers you from the last trip!'




Happy Birthday woman, one more year with Grace!



Besides shopping and eating, there is one bigger mission to achieve, that is to do the prayer.








Flowers are seen everywhere in Bangkok, especially near the temple or anywhere you can find the buddha statues.




We are given a few insense sticks and 2 candles, and told they're for the prayers of love buddha. Since it's given for free, why hesitate more?




This is where you should do your prayers for love and relationship:)




If you are a strong believer in the four-faced buddha, please do not miss this in Erawan.




Look at the tiny shoes!
Where are these little owners?





There we see the owners of the tiny shoes in the temple, saying prayer for the ceremony!


After all the 'noble' purposes of the trip are done,
one essential event is never to be missed!

Thai Massage!





We find this place in a mall,
it's rather a clean and comfy space.

The price is cheap, it costs only 270 baht per hour for a foot massage.





However, i just can't stand the way they clean my feet before proceeding to the massage!
A few alcohol sheets to wipe off the dirt of your feet that been walking for like...errr a hundred mile? not even washing with water and start applying lotion to it?
Ohhhh noo....can i wash my feet first in the loo before we start?






Btw,
This is what we do on a 5 days 4 night trip.

Nothing expensive, everything is just simple and spontaneous,
and its truly a joyful trip with the ever best companions.













We finally made it happened, ladies!
The bond never ends!




The night at bangkok is really mesmerizing,






but not without YOU!